Having lost my faith and understanding of Gods will particularly after I lost the boys and in my moments of darkness I do question still Gods will. In the sense that, why "giveth to taketh away"?
Today's newsletter from Mass included words from my priest about Good Shepherd Sunday (today).
He was talking about vocation into the priesthood for himself and for others and quoted Cardinal John Henry Newman who stated his vocation was "Gods definite purpose" for him and that there was a definite purpose for everyone.
The priest posed the question "What is God's definite purpose [for me]?"
I am yet to understand my journey or purpose and wonder why there was a reason I had to have children on heaven and earth. But I wonder if anyone can say what is their purpose?
I think of an acquaintance Kristine, who is campaigning for CHD newborn screening after the death of her beautiful girl, Cora (www.corastory.org). She has taken her girlie's death and is empowering others and saving babies lives in the process. Was this God's purpose for her?
