This doesn't seem like a huge milestone for many but it is for me.
Tonight I went to Zumba - ON MY OWN!!!
My friend wasn't feeling too good and asked if she would cancel. I really wanted to go still because I need to lose weight as I want to be skinny for my 30th.
And I went! I was shaking beforehand but thankfully, know the instructor and she chatted away to me. She will never know how much that meant.
Then it was time for class and it was nice to have familiar people around me.
Whether it will do anything for my weight loss.... who knows?!!!
I may use here as my weight loss tool.... what do you think?
Tuesday 29 January 2013
Tuesday 1 January 2013
Number 5....
............ be more active in the heart community - to spread awareness and love; be supportive at all times and be a good friend.
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Christmas and New Year
So it's New Year's Eve here and I am sitting here, reflecting on the last year.
Princess has learnt to walk, talk and we celebrated her first birthday. Another year without the boys, but I guess its another year closer to when we are reunited again.
A year of ups and downs.
Emotionally, I feel 'better' than last year - stronger perhaps?! Mentally, the demons are still there but what is that saying...... they stay quiet with chocolate.
Now talking of chocolate... I am not where I wanted to be weight wise to end the year and whilst this hugely bothers me - it also doesn't. I am 2 dress sizes smaller than last year and the same weight I started now on the journey to losing weight to marry my husband. I am focusing on that rather than the figure on the scale. Everyone asks me what goal is, and I don't know. Not til I look in the mirror and go, you know what, you look alright, you do.
Traditionally, we make New Year's resolutions and I have a couple :-D
1. To continue to get 'better'
2. To get to 'goal' by my 30th
3. To stop thinking about how far I have to go and look at how far I have come and be proud of myself for getting there
4. To meet up with friends more; esp one lady in particular, who I am united with in grief and loss
5. I don't have a 5th but 4 seems shoddy! LOL!
Anyway, I hope you all have had a good Christmas and it wasn't as painful as anticipated. Here's to another new year; may it be better than the last or what you want from it.
Thank you for reading!
Princess has learnt to walk, talk and we celebrated her first birthday. Another year without the boys, but I guess its another year closer to when we are reunited again.
A year of ups and downs.
Emotionally, I feel 'better' than last year - stronger perhaps?! Mentally, the demons are still there but what is that saying...... they stay quiet with chocolate.
Now talking of chocolate... I am not where I wanted to be weight wise to end the year and whilst this hugely bothers me - it also doesn't. I am 2 dress sizes smaller than last year and the same weight I started now on the journey to losing weight to marry my husband. I am focusing on that rather than the figure on the scale. Everyone asks me what goal is, and I don't know. Not til I look in the mirror and go, you know what, you look alright, you do.
Traditionally, we make New Year's resolutions and I have a couple :-D
1. To continue to get 'better'
2. To get to 'goal' by my 30th
3. To stop thinking about how far I have to go and look at how far I have come and be proud of myself for getting there
4. To meet up with friends more; esp one lady in particular, who I am united with in grief and loss
5. I don't have a 5th but 4 seems shoddy! LOL!
Anyway, I hope you all have had a good Christmas and it wasn't as painful as anticipated. Here's to another new year; may it be better than the last or what you want from it.
Thank you for reading!