Wednesday 29 May 2013

Airplanes

Anyone else feel the deep centred joy of being high in the clouds on an air plane? We are off for a mini break at the weekend and knowing I am nearer to the boys than I am here on Earth feels me with comfort :-)

Thursday 23 May 2013

Hi.............

Wow, it's been a month since I last posted... sorry! Time has gotten away from me. I keep meaning to write things down but then I barely have time to sit :-(

So eldest's 4th birthday has been and gone. Feels weird to think I have a 4 year old, just out of sight and just out of reach. I miss him so much! He visited me about a week before his birthday. He's so beautiful, but he always will be. We had a gentle day, found the build up worse, as usual!

The day of his birthday and the Sunday just gone, Princess has been acting weird when we get to the cemetery. She is fine until we are about half way up the path and then freaks out - screaming, sobbing, say 'no, no, no' and wanting to go back to the car. I don't know why.

The only thing different was obviously his birthday we brought balloons up and Sunday just gone, we took them down. Now she is a freak and doesn't like balloons occasionally so we are hoping it was just that and not the start of her not wanting to go to their garden.

I know the time will come eventually but it will break my heart if its now. I treasure, beyond anything, our family time :-(

Talking of family, we have a new addition and he is male! He has 4 legs before you get excited! My new boy puppy! It's hard work, its like having two toddlers at the same time! LOL!

Remember a couple months back I freaked about possibly being pregnant, turns out that my coil possibly has come out so perhaps a slight justification on freaking out. Wonder if Hubby could get tested whilst he is off! That would put some pressure off!

Not much more has happened here, still struggling with weight but found out my thyroid is low again so hopefully it will kick start again!

Love
Me xxx