She looks so much like her big big brother and hopefully like her big little brother too. She is so cheeky and funny and amazes me every day.
The pain is still there, my heart constricts when I think of my boys and I miss them so much.
As I sit in the garden and wonder and reflect, on all the things I missed with my boys but so thankful to have her.
I was asked the other day if I have relaxed yet with her and to some extent I have but then there is the blind panic of wondering when it will be cut short.
Still not easy!
