I've been pondering this for some time and I never felt that I would ponder it.
I feel like I no longer want to be active in the CHD (Congenital Heart Defect) community anymore. In fact, I probably haven't been for some time.
I still have a passion for it, I still strongly believe in it but not enough to be devoted to it.
I never thought it would come to this.
So perhaps its not walking away, perhaps its just taking a giant step backwards and I will lurk in the shadows.
Should I feel guilty for it?
